Struggles of a sinner

The world doesn't revolve around me.
I'd like to think it does.
But I know it doesn't.

All the turmoil in the world.
All the destruction.
All the unrest.

Why am I spared?
Why am I happy?

When others feel like they have no hope.

Why all the injustice?

I feel guilty for all I have.
Yet I know that it's not my fault.
Should I deny myself pleasure because others are suffering?
I hope to never take what I have for granted.
Never.

I'm grateful. Thankful. Overwhelmed.

I hope to cling to what's important.

One day I'll go home and be with my Saviour. But for now I'm happy this side of heaven. It's not always easy, but for the most part, God has been good.

People need the Lord.
People need the Lord.

I am blessed.

I am blessed to be alive.
To wake up each morning to a brand new day.

I am blessed to have parents.
Parents who love me unconditionally.
Who are unwavering in their support of my endless endeavours.

I am blessed for all the material comfort I have.
Every. Material. Comfort.

I am blessed with friends.
Friends who love and care for me.
Friends who share their lives with me

I am blessed with an education.
One that equips me for gainful employment.

I am blessed to experience Autumn in Sydney.
When leaves on trees turn brown.
When everything has a tinge of red and orange.

I am blessed with so many things I don't deserve.

Most of all,

I am blessed with Jesus' death and resurrection.

I am blessed with eternal life.

I am blessed by God.

I am blessed with so many things I don't deserve.